For those of you who don’t know....I have the shingles! As if that wasn’t enough, in the process of having some testing done because of some neurological issues I was also having, it was discovered I have Lyme Disease...thus the reason for some of the weird symptoms I was experiencing. One of the worst symptoms for someone like me is that I can’t talk! If you know me, you know I am a talker. I wake up talking! The Lyme Disease is making it difficult to get the words out...I can still think the words and type the words, but am struggling with the spoken words. Herein lies todays lesson....
Today I am learning humility (a giant lesson since I am the most prideful gal on the planet, no, in the universe). I have a zillion opinions and thoughts in my mind, but it is hard to articulate them and form some words. So I quietly listen to conversations with no comments. And the world is still turning without me!!!!!! How dare it!!!! My husband is functioning perfectly without my endless chatter of words, advice, helpfulness, and ideas of easier and better ways to do things!!!!!! YIKES, I am seeing what a total control freak I am, especially when it involves my children being taken advantage of (I think) by her work. Or her other job (last year) in Indiana giving her a hard time about W2 forms. OUCH!!!! I just have to be quiet and still and push the thoughts away or my head will start hurting and it feels like someone stuffed a cactus in my face!!!!!!!!
So today I am at peace with God dealing with problems. I am at peace with the fact I am not that sharp after all. I am at peace that the world does not have to dance to my tune. I am at peace with how my house, bills, church, job, school, turkeys, car, taxes, all of it is handled without my input.
I think I have found peace:) Isaiah 26:3 says, Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.
Pride causes me to think that I have the answer to every issue that arises. But I don’t! John 16:33 says, These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. Realizing that I am not in control of the world -- God is! -- has broken down the pride and brought peace. The absence of pride is peace:)